Fighting fear

Today was a great day to work. The temperature was great. Raelyn and I headed to he pen this afternoon. I set Raelyn up in her swing in he hatchback of the SUV while I worked with Spade. She loves watching the horses in her swing. Spade was pretty good today but after working a clients colt afterwards I realized that Spade isn't going to get anywhere until he lets go of his fear. And to tell you he truth I am not sure what to do for him. I have showed him everything...sacked him out with many different items. It doesn't take me long to get him to accept things but every new thing it is like starting all over. It wouldn't be so bad if his response wasn't to kick everything he isn't sure about. For instance today instead of the pink saddle pad I brought out my black one he was so scared of it initially that I though he was going to strike at it. Which being that I am holding it would mean that he would strike at me. Not cool! He is definitely not ready to be saddled. I didn't realize that he was that bad until I worked a much calmer horse afterwards. I have only had that one three days and I rode her for the first time today. Now I know I can't compare Spade to other horses but I wish the fear was no longer a problem. Growing up I had a problem with fear myself and I still fight it from time to time. So I understand how it is hard for him to work through things. When I was a kid it didn't matter if mom said everything was okay or not I would still be afraid. Today a friend of mine walked up the the edge of the round pen while Spade and I were working close to the gate. He was very afraid of her but the cool thing about it was he ran toward me. Of course he wanted to climb me like a tree but at least he didn't head to the back of the pen. The bible says not to carry a spirit of fear but of a sound mind. I am really praying for this horse that he really learn to trust. I had to learn over the years that my fear came from a lack of trust in the lord. When you trust that he has the best in store for you and that he will protect you and your family it makes it much easier to rest in Him. Through the good or the bad always know that God is in control.