Learning...me not him.

This morning I headed to church and it is so funny how God knows what we need to hear. I have been getting more and more frustrated that Spade isn't progressing like I expect. I know that these types of horses are particularly difficult. In the past I have trained two super flighty colts and they took extra time and effort to get done. That extra effort is getting hard find within myself. As I sat in church this morning pastor started talking about Gideon (Judges 6) and how his people had sowed over and over again for years and was seeing no harvest because the enemy kept stealing it. But they kept sowing. Eventually the Lord gave them a way out after they asked for His help. As pastor was preaching I felt the frustration that I have felt for weeks over this mustang. I started thinking about all the hours in the heat that I have spent, all the studying that I have done and all the experiences that God has given me over the years to help me in this challenge. I said to the Lord in that moment "I have sowed blood sweat and tears, over and over. Why am I having all this trouble. I know that You can change the mind of this horse" Suddenly I found comfort in the fact that I am dealing with something outside of just the challenge of training the mustang. God is trying to teach me something deeper then that. Now I just wish I knew what. At this point my first plan of action is continue to sow (keep working) and then to ask for Gods help through prayer. My motto has always been do all you can within yourself to the best of your ability and when all else fails pray. I am not sure if God is wanting me to learn something that will benefit my training though this or if He is trying to teach me a spiritual lesson. Either way I am going to keep working toward the end goal. 

After church we had a family get together until late so I came home and went to Spade and led him out of his run with the halter and lead that he has drug around all night. He was spooky as I approached but as soon as grabbed his lead rope and gave him a tug he dropped his head and followed me out in to the round pen. I pet him on the neck and dropped the rope and walked out of the pen. I wasn't planning on working him I just wanted to see if he was any different since he has been dragging the lead. I would like to say that it has helped but I really won't know until tomorrow.